When I'm at work I find myself feeling guilty for being a working mum and not spending more precious time with my little girl who is growing up far too quickly. When I leave work at 5pm on the dot I feel guilty that I'm not in the office working more hours, even though I know I'll be putting in those extra hours in the evening once Mia is in bed. I feel guilty that I'm not the same career driven woman I used to be, guilty that my priorities have shifted now that I'm a mum.
I find myself desperately wanting some 'me time' to cycle, to sleep in, to go out with friends but when I do finally get that precious time, I end up not enjoying it as much as I should as I again feel guilty for being away from my beautiful girl. I spend enough hours working that I should want to spend all of my non working hours having fun with my daughter.
Lately I've been tired and my baby is becoming a toddler that has attitude, by the end of the day I'm exhausted and at times feel frustrated when she doesn't co-operate. Again I find myself feeling guilty, she's just a very small human still finding her place in this world and it's my job to have the patience to guide her without getting frustrated.
So maybe you can try to do everything; juggle a career, be a mum and still be yourself. You just end up spending all of your time feeling guilty for not doing something else!
